You know, there have been many times over the past couple of years, and especially over the past 12 months where I thought about quitting. Just shutting this thing down and letting my writing slip away into Internet oblivion.
Then something will happen, and I'll need to vent, and I'll come running back to you.
And really, it's not fair to you.
You never know when I'm going to be here, or for how long, and I'm sure you're sick and tired of my whining when I do come back.
And yet, ever time I think about giving up, I just can't do it. OK, I did it once, but I saved everything first because I had a feeling I'd be back.
But now...I'm not so sure. I mean, I want to tell you about the things that are going on around my house, but it seems like I just have no motivation to do anything lately.
The one year anniversary of the beginning of our ordeal with CPS was stressful for me. It happened during my birthday week, and really sort of overshadowed everything. We are so grateful to be done with everything, but there is still that fear in the back of my mind that some day it's going to come back to haunt us.
And at this point...I feel like I have nothing left to say. I've been at this for almost 6 years, and I've gone from posting a few times a week to a few times a month. Things have been on a stead decline for 3 years.
I wish that I could promise you more of me, but I'm just not feeling it anymore. So my first post of 2011 may very well be my last. We'll see. Keep me around in your RSS reader, but don't be surprised if I don't say anything for a long time.
Thanks for reading.
I'll see you down the road...
8 comments:
No need to delete anything... If I've learned anything about blogs I've followed; they came and they go and often they come back.
I enjoy your occasional posts and hopefully you know at least someone is reading...
so long....
Hi..I found so interesting the way you are writing and the moment of your life u are living.
Just 2 words: don't stop! :)
~*Waves*~... Hey Daddy Blogger!!! And yes, I am a firm believer in the "family unit", and see my husband as an amazing parter/firend, and even better "daddy"
And "just because you are busy doesn't mean you are actually doing anything"... so don't worry if you post constantly!
Love checking in just to see what you might be up to. Family should always come first! Do what you need to, and blog when you need to. It seems you will always have willing readers waiting for the next installment.
Life is really hard. My life is somewhat similar to yours. I did not use blog to write my feelings, I thought if people knows it will be embarrassing for me. I have a diary. Now I started writing blog. Life is complicated or girls?
I realize im commenting a little late, but i think from what ive read, that you seem like a great guy. So why not do the thing that you enjoy?
Mate, your interesting.
Keep up the blogging!
+Following you now!
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