You know, there have been many times over the past couple of years, and especially over the past 12 months where I thought about quitting. Just shutting this thing down and letting my writing slip away into Internet oblivion.
Then something will happen, and I'll need to vent, and I'll come running back to you.
And really, it's not fair to you.
You never know when I'm going to be here, or for how long, and I'm sure you're sick and tired of my whining when I do come back.
And yet, ever time I think about giving up, I just can't do it. OK, I did it once, but I saved everything first because I had a feeling I'd be back.
But now...I'm not so sure. I mean, I want to tell you about the things that are going on around my house, but it seems like I just have no motivation to do anything lately.
The one year anniversary of the beginning of our ordeal with CPS was stressful for me. It happened during my birthday week, and really sort of overshadowed everything. We are so grateful to be done with everything, but there is still that fear in the back of my mind that some day it's going to come back to haunt us.
And at this point...I feel like I have nothing left to say. I've been at this for almost 6 years, and I've gone from posting a few times a week to a few times a month. Things have been on a stead decline for 3 years.
I wish that I could promise you more of me, but I'm just not feeling it anymore. So my first post of 2011 may very well be my last. We'll see. Keep me around in your RSS reader, but don't be surprised if I don't say anything for a long time.
Thanks for reading.
I'll see you down the road...